Tuesday, June 19, 2012

LONGING: wanting more

More. I wanted more.
Our society cultivates that desire within me. Catalogs and magazines show me the new colors to paint my walls, new clothes to buy, new places to travel, etc. What you have is never enough, so work hard to get more.

There is a problem here. I’m not supposed to want more. I love Jesus and know the scriptures. I know that material things will never satisfy. I know that I need to “seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness and everything else falls into place.”
So to not appear materialistic, I work on being healthier by exercising, gardening, and cooking healthy foods. I read. I research new time management skills because my old ones are outdated and my life still feels chaotic. I simplify my household and get more organized - iPhone, iPad, gadgets to help me organize my life that is crammed full of things.

When I want more of Jesus, I just “apply” the world’s remedy in that area. More of Jesus means more “spiritual things” like reading the Bible more, praying more, serving more, giving more, more self-sacrificing, more hours at church, etc.
After years of dealing with an eating disorder I refused to go to a Christian counselor, because I felt they would tell me, “You just need to trust Jesus more.” But I had tried the “more Jesus” route and was left feeling defeated, tired and worthless. No matter how many “Jesus” activities I did nothing brought me joy or peace.

                          Where is the abundant life that Jesus talked about?                   Does it really exist?                                         How do you find it?
Jesus said in Matthew 11.28-30 28-30"Are you tired? Worn out? Burned out on religion? Come to me. Get away with me and you'll recover your life. I'll show you how to take a real rest. Walk with me and work with me—watch how I do it. Learn the unforced rhythms of grace. I won't lay anything heavy or ill-fitting on you. Keep company with me and you'll learn to live freely and lightly."

I want to live this way.
I want my kids to learn live this way.

I want to "keep company" with Jesus and live freely.

Receive Jesus' blessing today.

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